As The Rain Pours

I have reopened wounds that I thought were already closed. I don't know why I want to thank you for doing so though. I guess this is the first step of trusting somebody. Except, Don't blame me if I don't. You can't blame me. Don't get all mad at me.

Ever since that Uni program, School hasn't been the same...

She Fights For Her Life

Time; How I hate this. It's infinite but yet there's not enough. If you get what I'm saying. We want so much time but we use it so..Well, We waste it basically. I hate it when the day ends, I always think I should of done this and that and then say I'll do it tomorrow but never get around it and soon enough I'll forget about it.

I feel bad for my dogs too. I feel like I'm wasting there life because there stuck in the backyard. I know they deserve better and I'm going to regret it when I don't have them anymore. So dear, Bibi and Miki. I love you and I will never stop loving you. You guys are my childhood pets and I will never forget you.

I fxcking love you so much.

It Comes With A Price

A friend once told me "You grow, You learn and then die." After all that hard work you've been through you're whole life. You end up dying. I never thought about life this way. It kind of changed the way I thought about everything. Kind of weird.

I asked a hard question today. I couldn't even answer it myself. "Can you survive without the internet, How long?" Ever since I've discovered the internet I've become more and more attached and dependent on it. Kind of weird. Cause what happened if the internet never existed or the whole thing just shuts down. What happens then? Kind of makes you think.

Haha, Well, It's almost midnight and I've discovered that that's my thinking hour. Maybe that's why I have midnight insomnia. My mind can't shut up. So maybe unanswered questions though. Too much to learn in a lifetime. I have a dying quench.

Walking On A Dream

Sorry; I remember in primary school teachers would force me to say sorry a lot. I never understood it though. Especially when it's forced. I'm supposedly meant to feel bad for what I do but isn't that almost like guilt? Kind of defeats the purpose of "Everything happens for a reason". Almost like, Making them regret it.

I mean I get it when the other person expects a apology but besides that, I don't get it at all. Thank you for pointing out that I don't understand basic human feelings. It's not my fault I don't get them. Even you couldn't explain it to me but hey, I had fun today. Thank you for the ice-cream. I actually felt gratitude. See, I'm not all that hopeless.

Don't Have To Believe Me

Ah, I went to the opera house today. It was pretty cool. The play I watched was Macbeth and it was.. Quite.. Disturbingly entertaining. Ha. Let's just say I saw more than I expected. Today was... Actually sort of nice. I was dead sleepy when I went home though and Tomorrow's Luke's birthday, So Happy Birthday to him!

Oh, Small blog today.

Next time you point the finger, I might have to bend it back and break it off.

It Was Truly You

So school is tomorrow. Am I bothered? No, I'm not. I wanna stay at home watching K-On. I don't know whether to go or not. I'm watching a couple of horror movies. How great. My night was fun. I went over to Vanessa's and watched Two and a Half Men and Big Bang Theory. She fell asleep on me. Even the evilest look adorable when they sleep.

She's probably gunna kick my arse later for doing some things but I'm fine with that since she gives out major rape. It's like.. She's active. All the time. Obviously Tommy was the only normal one today. We ran around Westfields doing stupid things but hey, If I'm having fun, I'm glad to be doing stupid stuff and embarrass everyone.

"The one who loves the least, controls the relationship."
Dr. Robert Anthony

You Said You'll Die For Me

Trust; Something I've been talking about lately. I kind of confused myself though. I don't like trusting people. I never did. Trust. To have confidence and faith in. To be vulnerable and to be assured. These are the things I shouldn't do because I've been screwed over so many times but yet I still choose to make the same mistake dozens of times.

I still haven't lived half of my life and I realised so many things and I'm almost afraid to live my life because I know what people out there are like. My fears are stopping me everyday. What a pain.

You were a piece of art until someone decided to throw paint all over you.

You'll Soon Regret

Forever and always. Isn't that a lie. Don't promise anything you can't keep. "A promise made is a debt unpaid." - Robert Service. I guess it's better to give people hope then no hope at all. Like when you drag people into your mess. "We can't be together.... Right now". Ah, That slight hope. How crushing it is.

How was your day?... It was.. Good. I'm starting to think this was a bad idea now. What did I get myself into.

You're The Worst

So I had a bit of a flash back. Not the whole my life is flashing through my eyes stuff. More of the "Wow, What ever happened?". I believe this year is the most I ever learned about life. Does it sound like I'm regretting stuff? Yeah, Sort of. Maybe a little bit. Thanks for noticing. That's what I'm here for.

Ah, Today was pretty awesome. I can't stand people but I can't bare to be alone. You have a point you know. You're the only one who had the guts and said that had to be said. I'm actually becoming very fond of you. Let's see where this takes us.

Oh and a few things I would like to say before I finish this wonderful blog.

• Please shut the hell up with your drama.
• It's funny how you call it being mature.
• Don't act like I don't know what you think.

I think is rather fun having people in your life.. to make it amusing. I don't care what happens but the result can never be good. I can't wait.

It's More Than Enough

Dudes;

I want to say thank you. You pick me up when I'm down and you always know how to make me feel better. I wish I had met you earlier. You're more than I can ask for. I've known you for so little yet I feel like it's been forever and we share so many great memories. Things will change, I know it but I just want to let you know it's been fun.

You. You're like sidekick that's always there to catch me. Sure you make fun of me but you always make it up by staying by me. I'm glad your there. You're more than I can ask for. You've been awesome to me ever since I've met you and I'm glad I did. You always ask me about my day and how everything went. You're always there to listen when I want to scream my head off.

I've known you the longest. Our relationship with each other has changed over the years and let me just say, It's the best right now. You're somebody who I want to be. You're more than I can ask for. You stayed up countless nights with me and you make me feel comfortable with myself. I've never spend a useless minute with you and I'll fall for you the hardest.

Thank you so much.

Let It Be Not

I graduated today. It was the best. The train ride home was really messed up though. I'm really tired. Everywhere hurts. I'm just gunna say a couple of words and that'll be my blog. Paper and sword swallower. Bottle in a paper bag. Wine lollies. Dripping ice-cream. Dementors. Hugs and kisses. Goodbyes. Robes. Speech. Tickets. $170. Demonstration. Passing the drinks. Beating the hell out of people.

I'm really tired. I haven't quoted anything in ages too. I'll just throw one in. "The jealous are troublesome to others, but torment to themselves" - William Penn. I'm going to bed now. Goodnight. Ah, Good times.

The Unforgettable

Ah, Another day of Uni. Holidays has been such a useful time for me. Not a single day wasted. So this is my 5th day of uni. I started programming my second robot, The humanoid. Well, Sort of a human. More like a 80's roller skater. Like that museum we went to yesterday. The train rides were quiet but I enjoyed it. Here's something I should remember just in case.

• Late for uni on the first day
• Smashed in the head.
  
• Building a battle car?
• Powerhouse museum.
  
• Hotdogs. Haha. Also the guards!
• Elevators and escalators.

I'll finish this dot point later. we went 26 floors up today and just jumped around in the elevator, Which gave me a major headache but it was hilarious. We meet a lot of random people. Like this afternoon, This "chick" yelled at us because we said a couple of things. Let's just say things like "Your face!", "Jeezuth Christ", "Shut your cunt up" and "But I'm religious" were yelled out. I couldn't stop laughing. Ah, Great way to end the day. Except this lady kept staring at me and Eddie.

Just A Passing Thought

My first day of uni was today. It was pretty exciting. I was 4 minutes late but hey, It was still cool. She doesn't like late people. Hopefully I'm early tomorrow. I built a robot today. Not a pro one but it's still something. I'll take a picture of it tomorrow and hopefully I'll remember to upload it here. It was pretty fun assembling and programming it.

We also got a lot of free stuff. This program was so worth going to. I think my favourite thing so far is that they gave us a free 8gb USB. Got free food, clothing, bag and so on. I had alot of fun today but it was pretty tiring. Especially the train ride home. I can't wait for tomorrow. I didn't even worry about the coldness half of the time. I love this.

It's Better Than

I woke up, Went to shops and went home. Decided to go out with TV. Yeah, I discovered that we're MTV. How lame, Right? We went to KFC and ate heaps load. Then we went to Aldi's to pick up these alcho tasting candy. We went off to the KFC and McDonalds at the highway. Don't ask why. We bought some ice-cream and played around in that child park thing. My knee hurts now.

We went to this big park afterward. It was quite relaxing. Except for this kid that kept circling us. We walked around and saw some rich ass houses. I was envious. We rolled down his really big hill. There was huge consequences. We went to the corner shop and bought some popcorn but never cooked them. We went to Satan's and hanged for a while. And we went home.

I wouldn't be bothered going to detail. I guess when I read this I'll remember what happened. I guess you just had to be there to understand our kind of fun. I love those douches. P.s Sorry I dropped you Satan.

Those Wasted Mornings

I woke up this morning. I got out of bed. Took a shower and had some breakfast. I was late for school but it didn't concern me. I was earlier than expected. I'm starting to hate night time showers. It's way too cold even for me. I stepped out of the door with the same old deep sign. How bored I was. The sun seemed late.

I crossed the bridge and I saw a television dumped into the river. I thought it was interesting. I walked on the frozen grass and it felt nice sliding across it... Then I realised I was stepping in dead bird feathers. Gross. I walked past that street. I saw a dead frozen rat. Poor thing died from Hypothermia.

I saw Creams today. That cat I mentioned a while ago in my blog.
Tuesday, March 23rd, 2010 - Thrill Of The Fall. I didn't see Cookies though. I saw this other cat that looked exactly liked him though. Black fur but no fluffy tail. It slowly approached me. I didn't let it cross my path. I played with it for a while but continued walking. I think that cat made my day.