Subfuscous

It's nice to know your suffering too. At least it's just not only me. I don't like staying home. I'd give anything to be outside. Whether it'll be scorching hot or pouring down rain. I don't want to be here anymore. Something is quite depressing about Christmas.

Whilst those people who celebrate Christmas and share love and junk, The people who don't feel further apart and more isolated from the world. Tommy; You made me the happiest I have been in a while and for that,
I am eternally grateful.

Dear mother, How I despise you.

Mishappening

I missed a day. Now it's pointless.

I was so close too.

Blest

I went back to the orthodontist. Teeth removed? I don't think so. Surgery? Great offer but I'll pass. I'll just take the braces and be off my way. Haha. A lot is happening tomorrow. Dear self. Try to keep your mind clear and just have a good time. Stop scaring yourself. You'll be fine.

Jolly

As much as I want to get in this warming Christmas spirit, I can't. I heard everybody's stories how wonderful and festive this is. But it's quite a different story for me. Every time someone brings the subject up,
I go all quiet and make up lies.

I will most likely wake up on Christmas morning like any other ordinary day except I will have this feeling where something's missing. An empty chill. I guess I'll just swallow the feeling of exclusion once again.

I haven't gotten any sleep yet and I've been crying all day.

Certitude

It rained a lot and I never felt more alone.
Rain, You are my only company.

Admire

So a lot is going to happen this week. I'm quite excited because since my early holiday has started it's been nothing but boredem. I need something to keep me occupied and lately, My thoughts have been quite good to me. I'm not quite sure but I'm happy with them. Keep it up. 

I'm seeing the beauty in every little thing.

 [ Sienna Skies - Breathe ]

Perplex

Day 17. I had quite a good day. I learnt how to make pancakes today. From scratch. It wasn't too bad. Just a little plain. Note: Add more sugar. Hahahaha. I remember a lot of blogs back I wrote about lying on the grass and doing nothing. That was basically my day and I enjoyed every single bit of it. Your scent still lingers around.

You just asked if I've been crying. 

Not this time. Not this time.

Worldliness

I went to new places. Didn't do much.

But it was fun. New experience. Hahahah.

Lets do it again sometime.

I haven't said a quote in ages.  

“Love is always open arms. If you close your arms about love you will find that you are left holding only yourself.”- Leo F. Buscaglia.

Anamnesis

Lets see. I woke up.

Alright sleep. 

Went out for a little bit.

Burning hot. 

I actually had a nice time.

Went home. 

Sat in front of the air-con and now watching a bunch of videos on youtube.

I need something better to do with my life.

Brazen

I had a weird day. <3

 I wasn't feeling so good today either.

Thank you more making it better. You bastard.

Certitude

Good day for a Monday. I lazed around all day basically doing nothing. Besides going out being stuff for dinner and then completely screwing it up. At least the mints were like flowers. I don't think I'm meant to cook. I believe whoever tries to keep in contact with me this summer are people who really want me around. We shall see!

Connaturalise

I went out for dinner at buffet 101 and it was wonderful. It was a pretty good day and I never felt so included in my life. I feel appreciated. I feel good about life at the moment.

Philter

Today was quite good. I just went shopping and browsing and came home with pasta. It wasn't as good where I like to get my pasta, But hey, I'd like any pasta really. I'm jealous of white people's food.

Coruscation

Day ten. It's the first day of my holidays and I must admit, I'm quite bored already. I somehow manage to fit everything I do throughout a nine hour period into three. I don't think I have anything better to do but facebook, watch youtube videos and browse for useless things.
I need to go out and do something.

Dear World, Inspire me. I need it.

Sanctuary

Almost forgot to write one for today.

I had a good day. I finished year 10 today.

Now I'm a senior.

I also got good marks.

Tended

Grab her around the neck, In an embrace. "Oh you're so sweet." Clutch her arm and dig your nails into her skin. Don't feel sorry, for I am not crying. Fake facade. "I'm fine." Biggest lie everyone tells. I will always be. Sometimes running isn't an option.

 Why am I doing this?

It does hurt. Why am I still standing here? Don't run. Trembling legs and weakened mind. "I don't understand you." How is this possible. I'm only hurting myself. I'm addicted to it. I know so.

All I really want is somebody to keep their promise.

Solitary

Day seven. I did shiet all.

I don't want the world to see me,
Because I don't think that they'd understand.

 Little did you know I cried next to you three times.

Blithesome

Hah, I thought today would of been for extravagant but apparently not. Maybe it was just the graduation. I kind of thought it would of been a fun and eventful thing. But hey, Whatever. I'm quite glad with my report as well. Serious, Quiet, Polite, Immature and distracted. I went to chocolate room afterward though. After a spending a long time at Centrelink. I had ice-cream and nachos today. Oh and gaming.

Harmonious

aI honestly don't have anything to write. I'm blank at the moment. I just went and watched Harry Potter, I had lunch and I saw this Ben Sherman bag that I wanted. Next time I'm going, I'm getting that bag. I hope I do anyways. Basically my day. I had fun. I graduate tomorrow. 

I have butterflies.

Tranquil

Day Four: I can pretty say I had a good day. It was just so nice and so calm. I wanna cry right now due to how happy I am. All I can say is  

Goo Goo Dolls - Iris.

Haha, You put me in one hell of a mood after such a monotonous week. I plan to have lunch tomorrow with Lucathar and watch Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. I can't wait til graduate. This week is gunna be fun.

I'm excited.

And I'm also getting braces definitely. This has been the best year so far. It has more ups then downs I believe. Even though December makes me sad, I never felt so alive. Dear world, Give me your worst.

The world was so nice to me today.

Reminiscence

Day three. I'm so tired today. That quiet breeze with the clouds moving with the trees and that comfortable feeling where nothing else matters. Today was pretty uneventful like I said for the third time today. I have nothing to talk about... Monday I graduate. I got a school service award that I won't be attending to. Basically it. No more school fees please.

Endearment

Hello world! Another daily blog.. Thing. Okay, So today was basically just another average day of school where nothing really happened. Something about toilet paper and an awesome teacher leaving. We had a small party just for her. I'm fine now. Hold back the tears. Haha, It was a pretty good day overall. My uncle also gave me a call, I hope he lets me get the braces. Today was a pretty good day... Til next time.

Trying to avoid saying I'm sick of this place.

Indulgence

Okays, So today is the first day of December and I'm gunna try to blog everyday about.. Random stuff throughout my day. Haha, Not much happened today so I'll talk about yesterday, I went to my first orthodontist appointment and it was pretty awesome. I don't mean to sound dirty but I had a lot of things put in my mouth. Hahah. The mould tasted like pre-chewed bubblegum.

I also went out with Lucathar for nachos (which was pretty damn nice) and some chocolate + strawberry crepes (which I freaking loved).
Note: I still need to go get some Japanese crepes. Today was a rainy day but it wasn't a bother at all. Rain, How I love you more and more each time. Haha, I love my dogs. Omnomnom, My dear.