Wouldn't Want To

Bottle things up.

It'll be full soon.

They'll spill.

Paying With Love

People harassing you is exactly the reason why I don't want to ever say my secret. I don't want people thinking me different due to me actions. Why is everybody so serious? Why does it concern you what I do with my life and my body. I believe I should have control over it. I'm not as strong as you. But I won't ever feel any regret from what I have done.

I'm proud dammit.

Great Departure

Tonight I tried to type things without getting too personal. I couldn't. I kept writing paragraphs but then erasing it. I wish my past didn't affect the type of person I was. But then again, It wouldn't of gotten me here. I don't regret being here right now but I wish I could of done it some other way. I'm just wasting time now. Like always.

Obnoxious

It's nice having that support. "You at you, Now look at him" I guess some people will never swallow their pride. Plot against me.

It'll make me laugh.

Pride

“Do not let loyalty and faithfulness forsake you; bind them around your neck, write them on the tablet of your heart”

Next time I'll grip tighter at your throat

Little prick.

Priority

I am giving up and I'm beating myself up for it. What is the matter with me. A question asked to me one too many times. Sometimes I just feel angry, You know? I'm not going to blame my gender for me being angry all the time. Just my perspective on the world has gotten me mad. I just want to be me. We're closer than you think.

I like it when people say I'm like this because of them. She's weak because of me. She thinks like that because of me. She hurts herself because of me. That just means you're in the wrong and blame. I can't explain how much people frustrate me. I can't tell you why because I don't have an answer. Sorry I don't have an explanation for everything I do. All I'm doing in scratching more imperfections into my life.

Secretive

"I have cheated death many many times before and I will do it again". Maybe it's more like you're cheating with other people's lives. That can be said in two context. But I realised new things. I went to new places and my day was excellent. Scruffy dog on a muddy road with a old wooden house that's tearing apart. You're advice, "Go straight". I'll remember it. I'll remember this day.

I looked uncomfortable but I really wasn't. I was welcomed, I felt calm. Besides the few incidents we had. I guess things like that make memories. I lied my way through both of you. But I don't regret it. Happiness comes first.

On The Edge

I feel like I'm existing instead of living. Life is something you should live up to, Not something you should survive through.

Impression

Ignorance is bliss.

Giving Them The Cold

Sometimes there are people who you got to let go. Not because they treat you like crap, Take behind your back or leave you all the time. Just some of the things they say that make you become a unhealthy person around them. Extra baggage to carry around. Uselessly. It's not that I hate you. It's just that I don't believe in your anymore. You're going more damage than good. I know you don't mean it.

I Get That

Some people crave for the attention. If you don't give it to them. They get mad. People you got to learn to deal with I guess.

Tears For Fears

Some things that make me cry.

• People who strive for perfection.
• Frustration.
• Hateful and judgmental people.
• Their life stories.
• Yearning for the past.
• Being comfortably lonely.
• The pure beauty of animals. 

Had Enough

I know I won't have the best sleep tonight because someone I care for got hurt. If I ever find out who you are. Who knows what I'd do. I know goddamn well that I've seen more spine in a jellyfish though. I want you to know that you can tell me anything and to be by your side, It'll be my pleasure and privilege. 

Skepticism

Don't take anyone for granted

You're A Fool

I've been thinking. I don't think I've ever regret anybody that has entered my life. I would say I do but never truly meant it. I regret actions, words and thoughts but I would I don't think I could be anymore thankful.

• You made me into a confidence person when I wanted to give up.
• You were there when no one else was.
• I can be myself around you no matter what.
• I trusted you so much. 
• We had so many good memories. It's sad.

I'm not sure why I'm saying this. It's late, I'm half thinking. I miss people that have walked out on me. Maybe I'm too forgiving. Maybe I'm just running back to something that's familiar. I just want that again. I wear this sad look so well.