Right Where We Left It

I went back to one of the places I use to visit every week when I was a child. It didn't seem like it changed much at all. It was still a quiet road every time we drove down. I still heard cicadas and all that seemed to change was the trees got bigger.

The speed bump was still there and the buildings were the same with a few changes that I surely expected. It was really nice when I walked through the shops as well seeing that all the shops were still there from 5 years ago. Even more.

The same old people were still working there and they still remembered who I was. I got a couple of greetings from people that I only remembered once I saw their face. Same old routine, Same old day. It was really nice actually.

Until I almost got killed by a p-plater who drove through the roundabout like no other car was around and carelessly on her phone. We had one of those moments where everything was in slow motion and we stared at each other and speed caught up with itself again.

We just brushed it off our shoulders. Later on I did see a pretty big collision on the highway today. Oh, Mardi Gras festival was on today.

It's Like November Rain

Today I took some time off and laid peacefully on the bright side of the grass. We made a somewhat star with our legs and relaxed. I couldn't care about anything in the world at this point. People walked pass but we didn't care.

As I laid on the grass twiddling my fingers on one hand and picking out small strands of grass with the other I noticed how huge the field was. Didn't look so big standing up. The breeze of the wind made everything so memorising.

We played the colour game seeing what colours we saw when we closed our eyes. The sun made everything a sunny orange. I glanced over to my right and I smile softly thinking how we look so calm and happy... It was nice.

Call It What You Want

I saw the sky in the puddle.
I made the impossible laugh.
I left my phone in the fridge.
I reconnected with some.

You made me gain confidence.
You made me speak louder.
You made me stay positive.
You made me feel included.

Some of these things you are yet to realise but yet I'm still too afraid to tell you. I don't even think you know this at all or would read this but as long as I write it somewhere, But why did I even note this down in the first place?

Mm... I hope I don't have any homework to do...

They Still Count

Dear Mon,
It's been quite a while since you've actually looked at yourself and say your happy with where life is right now. You haven't looked in the mirror and said "I don't give a damn." You haven't gone a day without thinking that others are saying stuff about you. You haven't done any of this in a while.

Though, You have stopped looking at the pocket mirror at school. You have stopped drinking. You have gone days of waking up in the morning and not giving a damn how your hair looks. You haven't burned anything and you are trying harder. I guess that sort of even things out. Even though they're small. Keep it up.

Yours truly, Musume. <3

Moments Like These

Make me feel warm and dreadfully happy.

I Wasn’t Stuck With This

Well, I feel like I got my heart ripped out. Not because of love. I don’t know. I just feel this sinking feeling. Sometimes I feel like I rely on technology way too much and when it’s taken away from me I feel like a part of my life has just been snatched away from me.

Internet is a big part of my life. At home I not the best at communication but socialising online keeps me by. I have the awful taste of soap detergent in my mouth due to my mother not cleaning the dishes properly.

Is that somewhat poisonous? Fruit never tasted so disgusting. I guess I’ll put up with the taste for now. I miss a lot of people at the moment. Wish I was with them. Some I haven’t seen for ages, Some I only seen today.

Life isn’t fair but it isn’t unfair either. You get what’s you get and who knows. For the better or the worst. I just noticed I haven’t used any quotes in this blog. Guess I’m not in the mood to or I just can’t think of any.

I’m just going to squish one in really quickly before I end this blog today. "It is not length of life, but depth of life." - Ralph Waldo Emerson

- Alright, See you guys next time.

Better Late Than Never

Today was a pretty good day, Even though it was long. I can’t complain but! I received my laptop today from the government. Thank you Mister Rudd. Though, I do hate the fact that even though I am at home and using my own internet there are still some restrictions to the websites that I got to. Oh wells, it’ll be all mine in 2012. Joy. [End sarcasm]

I’m currently in a blackout. Not the funniest thing when its 40 degrees and you got nothing keeping you cold. I don’t really mind the heat, It’s just when someone brings it up that’s when I start feeling it. Annoying, Don’t you think? I have a feeling my laptop caused this. Power surge.

I apologised for saying I might finish yesterday blog but I guess that was the actual blog. Hopefully the battery on this thing won’t die on me. This is the only thing keeping my sane at the moment. Don’t want to be paying attention to anything else right now.

Oh, Even a bigger joy. During the blackout my computer just happened to be on and totally fried my computer. God, I’m kind of stressing cause this wouldn’t be the first time this is has happened to me and I’m tired of losing all my stuff.

I am in such a bad mood right now. “People cannot gain anything without sacrificing something.” – Edward Elric. Basically, Karma. I gain a laptop and I lose my computer. Guess I got nothing to do but wait.

- Until next time fellow bloggers.

You Can't Be Dependant

Okay, Well. I can't say today was the best day I ever had but it's not the worst either. Once I got home I felt really uneven. You know that feeling? Where you just don't belong? That's what I'm feeling and you know how people always say you got stand up to do something if you want something? or close to those lines?

I believe that's true but some people get it so easy that I'm almost enivous. "Some desire is necessary to keep life in motion" - Samuel Johnson. I'm pretty stuck at the moment. I don't know what I want to do or going to do. Seems like everyone else has already made there choices and are moving forward. Is it just me?

Currently watching the flashing colours from the tv bounce off the wall. Strange. I always did cherish the little things in life but not the big ones. "You don't know what you got til its gone" a dear friend said to me once. So here I am playing with my clear glue and practically lost in life right now. What am I to do. I feel a deep pain in my stomach. Maybe it's just time to get something to eat.

- I might continue this later. But for now, Goodbye my dear.
"Soon I'm gonna be a Jedi" - Weird Al

Everything I Own

Oh gosh. So theres a first time for everyone.
And obviously I'm not a pure blogger.
But you know. I'll get bored eventually.

Let's see. Let's see. What is on my mind today. Ah, The word love? Cheesy subject, Yes, I know but I can't help to think even though people throw the word 'love' around like it's falling leaves in autumn. We might say the word alot but merely any of us really show it. "Make Love Not War" once said by someone. Or was it peace? But you get the idea.

Ah, Something I've been saying alot now. "People Suck" - Dahlia Lexington. As plain as it might sound it's pretty damn straight to the point. It's a shame some people have to be the way they are. Like, "I thought you were pretty but your personality made you ugly". Don't you just hate that? I'm currently learning about being (cultural) prejudice in English.

And I couldn't help think how much people jugde others on their looks alone. Strange isn't it? I got to admit that I do it too but then again, Who doesn't? The media just influence us too much. Bleh, This world is so rotten now. Well. More if I may.

BUT! Onto a happier subject. It rained today! And this is pretty much a blog for my good friend, Erfaan Arif. He introduced me to this and I love it already. This is just my first blog so I think I should probably end it now before it gets too boring.

- Hope to be hearing from you soon!