You Don't Mean To

I walked past your house and I was thinking about stuff you did to yourself. How something so horrible made you so beautiful. I had the thought of doing the same. I feel bad when people give you compliments. It just wasn't right. Then I saw your sister. The total opposite. In that moment. it hit me. Yet, She looked happier.

I wanna be that person.

Back To The Corner

You look so glum.
We'll I'm not.
So why do you look so sad?
Am I meant to paint a smile on me for you all the time?
How about being happy then?
I've given up.
Not on being happy. Just on yourself.

Through My Eyes

I was looking at photos of me at the past. I couldn't describe the emotions I feel looking at them and looking at the mirror now.

How things have changed.

I'm Not Here

I'm growing away from human connections. I don't want to. I don't know what I want or what I want to do anymore. I need sleep.I feel sick.

Miasma of guilt really.

Space

I don't belong here. Everyone stares and it's obvious. 

I need to be somewhere else. Even just for a little bit.

In This Together

I should be asleep but my mind keeps running. I can't take my own advice for the sake of my life. Literally. Get better soon.

Scrutiny

Have you ever felt so paranoid it keeps you up at night. Have you ever felt so tired but you can't sleep and guilt is keeping you up. Maybe you can't sleep because you can't stop thinking. Looking at your time and it says 3:00am. Ever almost cried because you're so tired but your body won't let you sleep. Begging to be released of your thoughts.

Have you ever waited for hours alone,
in love, no hope, praying just to fall asleep. I have. Far too many times.

Sparks Fly

I feel so claustrophobic in my own skin. I'm digging it out. I'm losing my hair. Can everything just slow down for a little bit. I need a break. I need to calm down. I hate being a girl sometimes all the time. I have to get everything figured out. I'm going to shout about.  

I might die if I forget to breathe.

I'm clenching down my on braces so hard they're bleeding.

No Stress

I changed my braces' colour today. Blue and grey. I had a good day today.

How You Live

I had a wonderful Valentines day. I got roses but I didn't know where to put them so I put them in the closet bottle with water. I'm tired. I need a year to sleep. Happy Valentines day. Even though I'm late. Whatever. By the way, You don't want a Valentines, You just want presents. You're quite a hypocrite when you say it's a commercialised holiday. Now a days. What isn't. Is it that bad you can't show love for one day instead of hating everything.

No Chances

Silence is all I'm getting. Fine. So be it. I no longer think of this as a lost. This has happen to many times that for once, Giving up is a good thing. We had our time. It was fun but I'm useless and you're no use to me. I'll walk off now.

Where Could I Be

Today was a exceptional day.

I didn't want to stab anyone in the neck.

I'm surprisingly happy.

You Need Help

I always told myself, I'm cold but today I have proved how cold I really am. I don't regret anything I said and I mean every bit of it. I said it to your face with witnesses. That's right. You don't believe me. Well, Did I prove myself today?

• I have no regret.
• I'm happy I said these things out loud.
• I have no heart.
• I'm not sorry nor show any remorse.
• I couldn't of said it any better.

Do you hate me now? Truly you do. I'm glad. Now get out of my life.