Scrutiny

Have you ever felt so paranoid it keeps you up at night. Have you ever felt so tired but you can't sleep and guilt is keeping you up. Maybe you can't sleep because you can't stop thinking. Looking at your time and it says 3:00am. Ever almost cried because you're so tired but your body won't let you sleep. Begging to be released of your thoughts.

Have you ever waited for hours alone,
in love, no hope, praying just to fall asleep. I have. Far too many times.