Drive

More often these days I end up questioning what I'm doing with myself and where I want to end up. It was only after 2014 where I thought "Shit, I want to die old". I suddenly have more possibilities and time to do what I want to and try to accomplish whatever I have in mind. However, I end up worrying more about how I'm going to spending my time rather than actually doing something with it.

My only thought process is, If it makes you happy; do it. With the conditions of:

• Is it in living means? i.e Money
• Does it harm or bother anybody else?
• Will if effect your health?

Of course these are just the main three points and so far I managed to really boost my quality of living. I started painting again. I began traveling and I'm doing things for me. I know it may sound odd because a lot of people do things for themselves but I was always worried about what others will think, how they will comment on it and how my actions affect other people. 

In the scheme of things, my doings are actually quite minute and generally have little or no affect on others unless I make it so. I'm getting into the habit of thinking that I'm not a bother and if I am, I shouldn't mind because they don't matter.