Engulf

I am hurting and I'm terrified of drowning. 

I want to belong and I want to feel included. I am tired of having to pretend I'm okay and everything people say doesn't burn my raw skin. I feel trapped and I can't leave without kicking the platform underneath me. I just want a blanket. Pull it over me and fall asleep. 

I'm tired. I'm exhausted. I just want crumbs of what everyone else has. I don't want to plea anymore. I don't want to beg anymore. I don't get angry anymore. I become disinterested. I push things away until I let myself believe I don't need it anymore. 

Reminds me when religion was beat out of me.