First Day Of Life

No longer can afford it. Can no longer take are of it. Will be dearly missed. Better off. I love you. I hate myself.

I only loved you but I don't want to see you suffer.

I'm Not Moving

How dare you judge me for giving to charity. I've been doing this for years now and you dare to say something about it now? You don't want me to help people who need my blood? Suffering depression? Victims of child abuse? and people who depend on public donations to live.

I have never been so ashamed to call myself human. Your system is corrupt. You deserve nothing yet you get things handed to you so easily. You should be fucking grateful. I'll leave and then you'll realise. You wait.

There's blood on the floor.

Can't Stay Here

You're seriously asking people why they hate you so much? Look at how you treat everyone and what you say. You want people to die for unreasonable things and say cruel and nasty things about animals and issues that are serious. You're not nice to anybody and quite frankly, you ruin everything that isn't yours. I know that look in your eyes where you wished you were accepted...

But you got to start somewhere and screaming, kicking and swearing will get you no where. I'm sorry to say this but I do agree on half of the things people say about you. Even your friends are stressed out because they get the shiet you start with other people. Instead of worrying about being accepted by everyone, Worry about who are your real friends and treat them better than the how the world is treating you.

Get Up

You either have to put up a fight or you have to forgive. That way you can finally forget and it'll stop being a burden on your mind. A part of me doesn't want to forget. But I must, Everything happens for a reason.

My teeth are bleeding.

Helena Bonham Carter is beautiful

Forget To Breathe

I don't understand why it took me this long to understand. If you never pointed it out I wouldn't of never understand. I don't know whether to thank you or live in denial. Lately I've been wanting to cry a lot.

"I guess it's because of change." I got to snap out of it.

"As we grow better, We meet better people"

Elbert Hubbard

Dawn Runner

Wow, I've been extremely lazy these holidays. It's the 19th and I've only posted 9 posts. Well, Today I'm getting my separators off and my braces on. Haha, I've been eating nothing but pasta, noodles and rice. I feel much healthier along with the evening jogging. I haven't slept all day. My appointment is in 4 hours. I'm excited.

Existences

You probably don't know this blog exist but here's a message if you ever get around to find it. We're not friends. I didn't make it clear but there are hints. You still try to talk to me after everything you did. I can forgive a person so many times but you had far too many chances.

I don't talk to people who put me down. You were one of them and there are many more to come. I'm not friends with you because of the shiet you did. I'm not friends with you because it'll be better for me. I know you'll find this. You're nosy enough. I wish you nothing.

Burning Time

I went to the beach today. Unbelievably I went into the water and I didn't mind at all. I had fun today. I still smell like salt though. My mouth hurts.

I Know What I Am

YOU'RE LONELY. I am not lonely. Yes you are. I just hate people. No you don't. You just hate yourself. Stop denying these things. I'm not denying anything. I can see it in your eyes that something's missing. Probably family. It's not family. Your confidence is good. How about your self esteem? What self esteem? Exactly.

You hate being alone that's why you're with me. Why are you crying? Because these things are true. Don't let people get to you. Just shrug it off your shoulder. Think about it. Don't take it all in. It's on the table. I hate how you're so personal sometimes. Psychologically crazy. No, Clinically depressed. Where did this all come from!? Why are you doing this? 

You made me cry once again but you're awesome. It's nice talking to you after years.

Unspoken Words

Hello world. I haven't had a decent sleep in a couple of days. Don't worry about the guilt. You seem to wash it away quite easily. I am the taste of unbalance, impermanence and just a bruise for a memory. Fatigue. Hunger. Unable to sleep. A few of the brutal affections my body gives.

It just happened. You fed me your heavy sighs and it boils on my skin. I forgive but I do hold grudges. Everyone has a trust percentage through my eyes and I act upon them. I feel stressed. Undiminished. Your promise.

That dress I bought today made me feel even uglier.

We All Yell, But Why At Me

I know what you're like when you're hurting, You hurt yourself even further. You go for the wrists. When your mind is tormenting you. You go for the wrist. 

You cry for attention. For anyone to notice the marks and scars. They make you feel better about yourself. Inside and out. Maybe you'll find someone too who would kiss them instead of judging you quietly.
Helping me to help yourself. I would show you my hips but I'm too ashamed.

Something To Cherish

Today is surely a day to remember.

Thank you for getting me that WWNPHD? shirt!

That Never Happened

Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone. But then I realise I'm not sad and turn up the music to loud. I'm alive. Oh and for a guy, You act like quite a bitch. I guess I'm dreaming again. I don't know whether I'm going deaf or just unfazed by the world. Someone excite me.

I'm going to add these pictures of Bill and Eric from True Blood.
It makes me smile.

Southern Sky

I had fun today. Even if that means I'll be Mrs.Whiskers forever. So be it. I'm going to the city tomorrow. I hope you have a good day because I plan to. I can't wait to see all the photos you've taken. I'm excited.

Rebirth

It's a new year. Meaning, New studies, new memories and new problems. So far the year has been great though. Went out with friends. Met my long time friend for the friend time and I'm getting braces. I'm really excited. Seems like this year is off to a good start! I ended 2010 with a excellent ending as well.

Yes, I have some regrets and no, I wouldn't change them one bit. Things happen but that's just how life goes and it doesn't stop for anybody. Let's try to make 2011 somewhat enjoyable. Good luck.