Belong To Someone Else

I don't know what to do anymore. I'm too afraid to live life right now. I can't look anybody in the face and tell them how I really feel. This feeling is killing me. I don't need your sympathy. I don't deserve your sympathy. I need your help but nobody would help me. I don't blame them. They have their own problems after all.

But when I help you with your problems, I expect you to return the favor and help me back in my time of need. You have no idea what it feels to be me. I must sound like the biggest, whiny bitch right now because my posts aren't like this at all.

"God, I thought I was going to have an asthma attack."

"Don't go dying on me now! Haha!"

Can you please.. Say that again. I know people don't read this because they don't bother but if you are reading this, Can you please tell me something along these lines. I know that I need people.. But it'll be nice to hear it back. I never felt so unloved and unneeded... Fxck this rotten world.

It's 4 in the morning and I can't fxcking sleep. 
Damn this God forsaken world.
It's frightening. 

Update; Nobody fxcking bothered telling me to live. Fxck all of you's.